Sunday, October 29, 2006
` 12:19 PM
taking that dim lit road towards the station evokes so much memories. its been a long long time since i walked down that road. that quiet and long road. part of my sec sch and jc life is spent walking this road. the road frm her house to the station. the night was peaceful and serene. i looked at the many houses that i remembered ever so fondly ever so distinct. i have walked it be it sunshine be it rainfall during my sec sch days or jc days. ahh..
we always believe that time will make everything fade eventually. heartache. joy. everything. but sometimes it may fade overtime but the after taste of that event will always be in our heart for the years to come. whenever we listen to a song or looking at something. the pouring of the sense of deja vu will start coming in. then your mind start drifting back to the days when you were experiencing that kind of feelings. jus like how i felt while walking that road.
i felt so much in a night. so many thoughts came rushing back.
memories are wonderful things if we dont have to deal with the past. how true.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
` 1:56 AM
ugh. this week was pretty hectic. had exercise vhf on wed. supposed to push off at 11am but commander nt happy w our planning and presentation thus we were forced to delay the timing. in the end we went off at arnd 5pm.came back and by the time i hit the bed. its arnd 2am alr. thurs had guard duty so totally shagged man. nxt week is 16km route march... up man.
strangely. she has been crossing my mind quite a no. of times this week. dont know the reson behind it but she jus appeared on my mind. jus thought back the times we had together. its been close to 10 months yet the memories hit me as strongly as before. the thoughts jus engulf my mind in waves. aint sure whats happening though.fuck.
all that i have got- the used
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me,
Off guard
Red handed; now I’m far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me.
I need something else
would someone please just give me?
Hit me and knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh all I want insideI still am empty
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me.
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got(All that I’ve got)
I guess I remember every glance you shot me
Unharmed, I’m losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hardI stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn’t even scream Fuck me.
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
` 3:32 AM
how nice and sweet if we can go back to the times when we were so innocent and carefree then. we play we joke we had fun. we parted ways without any worries when the sun sets cos we know we will be able to meet again the very nxt day. we were full of crazy ideas then. oblivious to the outside world. zapped everything evaporates into a mist and we can only think back the times we had with ourselves.
down the road. many things had happened to us. we lead our own lives. we grow up. we become matured. we still maintain contact.bah im gettin high aft a night round of drinking. im uttering rubbish.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
` 1:25 AM
today went to essential brew at holland v to catch up with le jia and wendy. the place was cozy and comfortable. its was nice to see them. really miss them loads. today was kinda quiet. maybe im too shagged to talk alr. so i did most of the listening. lookin at them. i realised we have all grown up and become matured. sec 1 sec 2 days we were still freaking childish haha. wendy has really grown to become so matured and pretty. im really proud of her. dont know why but these few days i prefer to do the listening instead of talking. dont ask me the reason. i hope we can meet up soon agn. hey nu er. thanks for the card. it was thoughtful and i like it :)
finally. i can feel that the door has alr closed upon me. these moments of longing had come to an end i hope.
hey kayan. dont you worry bout that issue k. i will be here to listen to ya any probs haha. be positive. not like me haha. all the best! take care!
Sunday, October 01, 2006
` 5:46 PM
this week was rather mundane. went to meet yx on fri after book out but was terribly late cos had to go nich hse to get back my player. in the end we went blk 85 to have our dinner. very long nv try out hawker food so the feeling was especially nice lol. sat lazed arnd before going to meet yx and go suntec to use the topman, nike, adidas voucher i had. dint manage to find any nice stuffs in topman so i gave it to kiwi who happened to be in suntec with 2 gals*erm erm* haha.
in the end bought a berm frm nike. then send yx to marina bay for her class dinner while i took the train home. ha. walked to long route back home. the one that runs under the MRT track. been ages since i last walked that with my player. i love to walk that stretch of road. slowly walking and walking aimlessly. and watch the world go by.
jus now went for a swim. after that walked to tampines swimming pool to ask bout the lifeguard course. sadly its timeslot is on wed night. there goes one of my "thing to accomplish". im running out of ideas to make use of my time man. any ideas?
nxt week im the couse ic. highest position in the platoon. for 2 wks lol. hope my desire to slack everyday doesnt get me into deep shit haha. am looking forward to my date w lejia at wala wala nxt fri.
am 15 sec frm getting a gold for ippt. ugh. i suck at running.
i want to get a bike to cycle every weekend and experience the thrill again.